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A love of baking – tract 4 day 6

I arrived at my usual spot (which has now become the drain cover outside GAP on Royal Avenue) at around 12.30 today, set my timer and got to work. The free bible giver was there again today and I noticed several people stop to talk with him. I had a couple of people stop and talk to me also. One man stopped to say he had read the tract yesterday and he thought it was really good, another passed by twice, the second time he stopped to say he really enjoyed the tract and that he was going to try baking for strangers so I would love to know if he does and how it goes. This aspect of the work that I put the tracts out there but get little feedback or shared experience beyond handing the tract over is something I would like to work on.

The longest interaction of today was a couple of men, possibly father and son? the elder of the two stopped to ask what I was giving out, the younger answered for me saying it was about Jesus right? I explained that is wasn’t that the project is about reclaiming values often attributed to Christians that I feel belong to everyone, for example, compassion, empathy or kindness. The younger man then said it was like humanism, I would not label myself as a humanist so this is a new area which I need to research more deeply to allow myself to coherently explain the differences. I did explain I am an atheist to which he responded that he was neither a Christian nor an atheist, the older man said “yes you are a . . .” the younger man simply said ” do not tell me what I am” at this he walked off across the street. This left me with the older man and he began to share his belief in guardian angels. I was a little surprised by this but I kept this to myself in the hope he would share more. He explained he used to have a Mitsubishi Shogun and had been driving in Donegal with the radio at full volume and the heat up full blast. It had begun to snow, soon turning to a blizzard. With all the noise in the car he didn’t hear the change when the wheels left the road and began to plough through a snow drift. He hit black ice and as the car began to spin he spoke to his guardian angel saying “you are driving now” as he lost total control. The car ended up crashing into a privet hedge and once he had come to a full stop he realised that the hedge was only a small part of a wider barrier. To the left and right of where his car had ended up was stone wall for miles in both directions. He believes “this was not just a coincidence”.

I gave away around 60 tracts so I may head out again tomorrow. If you are in Belfast keep an eye out for me!

A love of baking – the tract.

A love of baking (tract 4 day 4)

Had the best intentions to make it to town around lunch time to get the crowds passing but this wasn’t possible so I arrived at 3 a little flustered and found the “free bible girl” on my stage. It was starting to rain so I wanted the shelter, I allowed myself a manhole cover as a new and improved stage and soon realised that if I stood on this side of the entrance to Gap then people couldn’t slip into the shop to get past me, this may sound paranoid but I a sure this had happened previously.

As the rain got heavier a strange thing happened – more people started to accept my tracts rather than less. I am assuming this is because the more uncomfortable they felt the more they wanted my standing in the rain to have a purpose. It is days like this that I am sure they give me a gift and get nothing in return. A few people stopped to say what good work I was doing and a few openly laughed in my face as they took the tract only to throw it in the nearest bin. One young man took the tract and realising what his assumption led him to believe it was he began to veer towards the bin reading it as he went, his steps slowed then he began to walk away from the bin towards Castlecourt putting the tract in with his shopping as he went. I cannot explain how happy I felt and I began to wonder what it must feel like to stand on the street day after day and then for one day someone to come to you and say they want to become a Christian and can you help them? What if someone asked me that! I suddenly felt grateful to have “free bible girl” nearby I could refer any people wishing to be “saved” to her. What then is my responsibility to those I give tracts to?

While pondering all this a man approached to ask “What is it you are giving away that no one is taking?” Following the advice of the woman from yesterday to tell everyone it was a recipe I did just that. It turned out this man was a baker, so I asked him how to keep my chocolate chips in the middle rather than all at the bottom of my buns. “Oh” he replied “I don’t make buns just scones mostly” I asked how the fruit stays in the middle of the scones hoping this would give some guidance but he just told me he mixed it well. He left me with instructions to try to make a Yorkshire Brack (http://www.itv.com/food/recipes/yorkshire-brack) so I will give this a go (and maybe give it out on the bus if it’s not a disaster.)

My last observation for today is how strange it is to give out the last tract of the day. I had a bundle of tracts from yesterday left but the rest were locked in my studio so I decided to give away all that I had with me and when I got to the last one I felt I had lost my authority to give it out. Normally people look at the bundle in my left hand and it seems to give reassurance, other people will get this tract to, I’m not just someone odd giving out my own post or something! As I gave the last tract to a women I handed it over and she glanced quickly at my other hand she seemed confused, what kind of person has only one leaflet to give away? The answer is the kind that will be better prepared tomorrow! Usually I set a time to stay out and have many leaflets left at the end of each session I find some comfort in holding these leaflets but it is also a reminder of the work still to do.

Tract 3 day 3 A New Resolution

The weather is not helping my tract giving I can only manage about 45 minutes out in the cold before it gets too much but I did achieve a lot in todays 45 minutes. I was giving out the tracts on Royal Avenue, outside the Gap store and managed to give about 60 away. A guy about my age approached and asked “Do you believe in God?Do you?” and seemed a little confused when I said not, he didn’t either but straight away said “But you must believe in a higher purpose?” I said not I hope that humanity id inherently good and that is my higher purpose but he said he did believe in something higher “That there has to be something better than us out there” I really think most people have hat hope but for me it is that there is something bigger than me, I take comfort in being such a small part in the life of our planet but it is important what we do with this small part.

So what is the small part of art, I do think art has a responsibility to provide a new way of living or thinking in the everyday. There is a parallel for me that art suffers when it is for art’s sake and religion suffers when it is for religion’s sake. I will write more about this over the next few weeks and let you know about a few events I am planning.

Tract 3 A new Resolution day 1

Thinking about what may happen is the hardest part of standing on the street day after day to be rejected. I began distribution at 1pm and by 2pm had given away the first 100 tracts. For this tract I have used a different image as a border, the last two looked very similar to the true religious tracts whereas this one was black, white and red and looked a little different. The colours look like protest leaflets and several people asked if it was about women’s rights. I guess I looked like a cross between a promoter of some sort and an evangelist and so I used the techniques Andrea Montgomery and I worked on if people spoke to me. I did not ask people to stop and talk outright for two reasons, firstly, if the tract looked different I wanted to see how this worked on its own as a strategy and secondly it was a bit daunting. I didn’t want people to have a bad experience of the project so I need more practise and will work on this before for tract 4. I will go back to a more traditional layout and really work at an actual dialogue in person and then afterwards on this blog.

I met Arthur Magee (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iPb1w6spNYE) we had a great chat about his solo shows and walks and about what I am attempting with this mission. One thing I realised though is that once you mention religion there is no middle ground. I am occupying a sort of no mans land. I am not against religion, I am not interested in focussing on the bad problems people have with religion as a way to popularise my work, rather I want to provide an alternative dialogue. I want to create a space for those who want to discuss their ways of living and being in a place like Belfast. I am not an evangelist for atheism but rather an evangelist for open discussion.

Practising Secular Evangelism.

I’m looking to get a dialogue started on this blog from the action of handing out the tracts I had a wonderful tutorial with Andrea Montgomery http://www.andreamontgomery.net/

We discussed the options and addressed will and counter-will which in this instance can be summed up as

will: Use religious literature as a vehicle for debate

counter-will: struggling against being identified as Christian but not wanting to reveal the work too quickly.

With tract 3 I have changed the format slightly by altering the background design. I am also hoping to be more direct in encouraging dialogue whilst distributing the tracts. The tutorial with Andrea really focussed my mind on what I want to achieve and the possible ways to attempt this.

Tract 3 will be distributed today from 1-2 in Belfast City Centre on Royal Avenue. I am wearing a bright red coat so you shouldn’t be able to miss me! We shall see what impact terrible weather has on the project. I will post again after 2 and let you all know how it went.

thanks for following my progress and please feel free to leave any comments

A tract in progress.

 

Tract 3 will be going to the printers next week along with Tract 4, I have decided to use a different background as a visual trigger to hint that this tract is not religious literature. Being January this tract is themed on New Years Resolutions and the next tract is about Social Networking. Both will be distributed in Belfast during the remainder of January with the hope that I will complete and distribute 2 tracts a month until May.

As always I will put the finished tract up after I have distributed them.

I am working on selecting possible collectors for the work and am drafting a letter to post along with the first tracts in the series, If you are interested in becoming a collector please let me know.

I am also considering how the work will be displayed at the end of my Masters project. (though this may not be the end of this body of work, obviously I need to present a coherent display of the project and how it has unfolded.)

Tract 2 the distribution photos

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Gives you a little idea of the lonely life of a tract giver.

The Perfect Gift – tract 2 day 2

Day 2 was 23rd December, it seems people understand why you would go shopping this close to Christmas but it is not normal to choose to be in town to give out tracts. Several people asked why I wasn’t at home relaxing, implying it wouldn’t make a difference to anyone if I was there or not. As an artist I fear this is sometimes true. It is my practice but why should it matter to anyone else. The answer is clear to me at points. My themes are everyday experiences which are accessible but this also makes it harder to clearly define it as art when explaining my practice to the wider public.

Here are some of the experiences of the day

1. Free bible giver who regularly distributes from the point where I was standing. He assumed I was Christian then when I explained this was not the case he seemed quite annoyed. Did I have a right to appropriate something that is Christian and what is the point? He inferred Christians give these leaflets out to encourage faith but if I am faithless what is my driving force. I suggested among other things it was a statement about ownership of morality, that we are capable of living with values without the religion.

2. “Oh a tract! God bless you” This man stopped with his family to give encouragement as he was sure I wouldn’t be getting much encouragement. He referenced the title of the tract and said that we must remember that this really was the “perfect Gift”

3. “I just want to say im so glad you are out here today” A girl tapped my shoulder and on her way past and I noticed her jumper was from a church mission as she passed.

Several people also said “Bless you” as they took tracts, as with the last tract I was uncomfortable with them misreading my intentions and found this more difficult than the people who took tracts and seemed annoyed by the religious content.

4. “Oh I’ll take one I really need it” was said by a passerby in a football shirt as he laughed to himself and walked on.

5. A man stopped and asked why was I out here and not at home with my family. I tried to hand him a leaflet but he couldn’t read or write and asked me to explain what it said. I began to tell the story but he interrupted to ask where I was from. I answered Belfast when he continued to say he had been in prison for 16 years for what he called a “religion based crime” and continued to ask where in Belfast I was from. I have never felt more clearly that what was meant wasn’t where are you from but which side are you from Protestant or Catholic. I answered near Stormont and he confidently explained I was from the other side from him. He then said he couldn’t figure me out at all but had one more question – was I married.

So after giving out 90 tracts I headed home. I was struggling with whether to return again on Christmas Eve.

The Gift of the Magi – inspiration for tract 2

Tract 2 is at the printers, here is the inspiration for it to read while we all patiently what for Tract 2 to be distributed.

O. Henry, The Gift of the Magi

One dollar and eighty-seven cents. That was all. And sixty cents of it was in pennies. Pennies saved one and two at a time by bulldozing the grocer and the vegetable man and the butcher until one’s cheeks burned with the silent imputation of parsimony that such close dealing implied. Three times Della counted it. One dollar and eighty- seven cents. And the next day would be Christmas.
There was clearly nothing to do but flop down on the shabby little couch and howl. So Della did it. Which instigates the moral reflection that life is made up of sobs, sniffles, and smiles, with sniffles predominating.
While the mistress of the home is gradually subsiding from the first stage to the second, take a look at the home. A furnished flat at $8 per week. It did not exactly beggar description, but it certainly had that word on the lookout for the mendicancy squad.
In the vestibule below was a letter-box into which no letter would go, and an electric button from which no mortal finger could coax a ring. Also appertaining thereunto was a card bearing the name “Mr. James Dillingham Young.”
The “Dillingham” had been flung to the breeze during a former period of prosperity when its possessor was being paid $30 per week. Now, when the income was shrunk to $20, though, they were thinking seriously of contracting to a modest and unassuming D. But whenever Mr. James Dillingham Young came home and reached his flat above he was called “Jim” and greatly hugged by Mrs. James Dillingham Young, already introduced to you as Della. Which is all very good.
Della finished her cry and attended to her cheeks with the powder rag. She stood by the window and looked out dully at a gray cat walking a gray fence in a gray backyard. Tomorrow would be Christmas Day, and she had only $1.87 with which to buy Jim a present. She had been saving every penny she could for months, with this result. Twenty dollars a week doesn’t go far. Expenses had been greater than she had calculated. They always are. Only $1.87 to buy a present for Jim. Her Jim. Many a happy hour she had spent planning for something nice for him. Something fine and rare and sterling–something just a little bit near to being worthy of the honor of being owned by Jim.
There was a pier-glass between the windows of the room. Perhaps you have seen a pierglass in an $8 flat. A very thin and very agile person may, by observing his reflection in a rapid sequence of longitudinal strips, obtain a fairly accurate conception of his looks. Della, being slender, had mastered the art.
Suddenly she whirled from the window and stood before the glass. her eyes were shining brilliantly, but her face had lost its color within twenty seconds. Rapidly she pulled down her hair and let it fall to its full length.
Now, there were two possessions of the James Dillingham Youngs in which they both took a mighty pride. One was Jim’s gold watch that had been his father’s and his grandfather’s. The other was Della’s hair. Had the queen of Sheba lived in the flat across the airshaft, Della would have let her hair hang out the window some day to dry just to depreciate Her Majesty’s jewels and gifts. Had King Solomon been the janitor, with all his treasures piled up in the basement, Jim would have pulled out his watch every time he passed, just to see him pluck at his beard from envy.
So now Della’s beautiful hair fell about her rippling and shining like a cascade of brown waters. It reached below her knee and made itself almost a garment for her. And then she did it up again nervously and quickly. Once she faltered for a minute and stood still while a tear or two splashed on the worn red carpet.
On went her old brown jacket; on went her old brown hat. With a whirl of skirts and with the brilliant sparkle still in her eyes, she fluttered out the door and down the stairs to the street.
Where she stopped the sign read: “Mne. Sofronie. Hair Goods of All Kinds.” One flight up Della ran, and collected herself, panting. Madame, large, too white, chilly, hardly looked the “Sofronie.”
“Will you buy my hair?” asked Della.
“I buy hair,” said Madame. “Take yer hat off and let’s have a sight at the looks of it.”
Down rippled the brown cascade.
“Twenty dollars,” said Madame, lifting the mass with a practised hand.
“Give it to me quick,” said Della.
Oh, and the next two hours tripped by on rosy wings. Forget the hashed metaphor. She was ransacking the stores for Jim’s present.
She found it at last. It surely had been made for Jim and no one else. There was no other like it in any of the stores, and she had turned all of them inside out. It was a platinum fob chain simple and chaste in design, properly proclaiming its value by substance alone and not by meretricious ornamentation–as all good things should do. It was even worthy of The Watch. As soon as she saw it she knew that it must be Jim’s. It was like him. Quietness and value–the description applied to both. Twenty-one dollars they took from her for it, and she hurried home with the 87 cents. With that chain on his watch Jim might be properly anxious about the time in any company. Grand as the watch was, he sometimes looked at it on the sly on account of the old leather strap that he used in place of a chain.
When Della reached home her intoxication gave way a little to prudence and reason. She got out her curling irons and lighted the gas and went to work repairing the ravages made by generosity added to love. Which is always a tremendous task, dear friends–a mammoth task.
Within forty minutes her head was covered with tiny, close-lying curls that made her look wonderfully like a truant schoolboy. She looked at her reflection in the mirror long, carefully, and critically.
“If Jim doesn’t kill me,” she said to herself, “before he takes a second look at me, he’ll say I look like a Coney Island chorus girl. But what could I do–oh! what could I do with a dollar and eighty- seven cents?”
At 7 o’clock the coffee was made and the frying-pan was on the back of the stove hot and ready to cook the chops.
Jim was never late. Della doubled the fob chain in her hand and sat on the corner of the table near the door that he always entered. Then she heard his step on the stair away down on the first flight, and she turned white for just a moment. She had a habit for saying little silent prayer about the simplest everyday things, and now she whispered: “Please God, make him think I am still pretty.”
The door opened and Jim stepped in and closed it. He looked thin and very serious. Poor fellow, he was only twenty-two–and to be burdened with a family! He needed a new overcoat and he was without gloves.
Jim stopped inside the door, as immovable as a setter at the scent of quail. His eyes were fixed upon Della, and there was an expression in them that she could not read, and it terrified her. It was not anger, nor surprise, nor disapproval, nor horror, nor any of the sentiments that she had been prepared for. He simply stared at her fixedly with that peculiar expression on his face.
Della wriggled off the table and went for him.
“Jim, darling,” she cried, “don’t look at me that way. I had my hair cut off and sold because I couldn’t have lived through Christmas without giving you a present. It’ll grow out again–you won’t mind, will you? I just had to do it. My hair grows awfully fast. Say `Merry Christmas!’ Jim, and let’s be happy. You don’t know what a nice– what a beautiful, nice gift I’ve got for you.”
“You’ve cut off your hair?” asked Jim, laboriously, as if he had not arrived at that patent fact yet even after the hardest mental labor.
“Cut it off and sold it,” said Della. “Don’t you like me just as well, anyhow? I’m me without my hair, ain’t I?”
Jim looked about the room curiously.
“You say your hair is gone?” he said, with an air almost of idiocy.
“You needn’t look for it,” said Della. “It’s sold, I tell you–sold and gone, too. It’s Christmas Eve, boy. Be good to me, for it went for you. Maybe the hairs of my head were numbered,” she went on with sudden serious sweetness, “but nobody could ever count my love for you. Shall I put the chops on, Jim?”
Out of his trance Jim seemed quickly to wake. He enfolded his Della. For ten seconds let us regard with discreet scrutiny some inconsequential object in the other direction. Eight dollars a week or a million a year–what is the difference? A mathematician or a wit would give you the wrong answer. The magi brought valuable gifts, but that was not among them. This dark assertion will be illuminated later on.
Jim drew a package from his overcoat pocket and threw it upon the table.
“Don’t make any mistake, Dell,” he said, “about me. I don’t think there’s anything in the way of a haircut or a shave or a shampoo that could make me like my girl any less. But if you’ll unwrap that package you may see why you had me going a while at first.”
White fingers and nimble tore at the string and paper. And then an ecstatic scream of joy; and then, alas! a quick feminine change to hysterical tears and wails, necessitating the immediate employment of all the comforting powers of the lord of the flat.
For there lay The Combs–the set of combs, side and back, that Della had worshipped long in a Broadway window. Beautiful combs, pure tortoise shell, with jewelled rims–just the shade to wear in the beautiful vanished hair. They were expensive combs, she knew, and her heart had simply craved and yearned over them without the least hope of possession. And now, they were hers, but the tresses that should have adorned the coveted adornments were gone.
But she hugged them to her bosom, and at length she was able to look up with dim eyes and a smile and say: “My hair grows so fast, Jim!”
And them Della leaped up like a little singed cat and cried, “Oh, oh!”
Jim had not yet seen his beautiful present. She held it out to him eagerly upon her open palm. The dull precious metal seemed to flash with a reflection of her bright and ardent spirit.
“Isn’t it a dandy, Jim? I hunted all over town to find it. You’ll have to look at the time a hundred times a day now. Give me your watch. I want to see how it looks on it.”
Instead of obeying, Jim tumbled down on the couch and put his hands under the back of his head and smiled.
“Dell,” said he, “let’s put our Christmas presents away and keep ‘em a while. They’re too nice to use just at present. I sold the watch to get the money to buy your combs. And now suppose you put the chops on.”
The magi, as you know, were wise men–wonderfully wise men–who brought gifts to the Babe in the manger. They invented the art of giving Christmas presents. Being wise, their gifts were no doubt wise ones, possibly bearing the privilege of exchange in case of duplication. And here I have lamely related to you the uneventful chronicle of two foolish children in a flat who most unwisely sacrificed for each other the greatest treasures of their house. But in a last word to the wise of these days let it be said that of all who give gifts these two were the wisest. O all who give and receive gifts, such as they are wisest. Everywhere they are wisest. They are the magi.

 

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